It comes to me that like most of the people I want the best for myself and others. I want to live extraordinary life, I want to live without pain and being scared. I want to eat food and never gain weight. I want to safe place to call my own to raise a family. I want more free time with my husband and my beautiful kids. And concentrating on luck of things make me sad and pain in my body makes me feel weak. Then from no where I get this amazing revelations… I am a sinner who is being Saved, Justified, Redeemed and I am going to heaven. Isn’t this extraordinary? Being blessed to wake up every morning hearing kids laughing, in clean warm bed. Have wonderful, healthy breakfast. From food I have chosen and purchased, topped with beautiful berries in the middle the winter. Isn’t this an abundance… I love driving and shopping for my family. I have home business so it was no hustle to keep kids home and drive them to March brake camp… I am so blessed. Why then why I get so down on myself? I believe it’s a choice but it’s so hard to choose hope and joy and peace when i don’t feel like it. That’s why I need Jesus… every day and every hour. And it’s ok for me to not to be perfect , He loves me anyway. My God is Love and Hope and Peace. He will never leave me, never forsake me and never give up on me. Have a blessed day.