“Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers. But whose delight is in the law of the Lord.” Psalm 1:1-2
I grew up believing that law was a way of enforcing andimposing foreign will on someone else. As a teen, I had a few encounters with the law and realized it was corrupt and misused for the benefit of the one in authority. It sparked an even bigger rebellion within me. I was a sinner, mocker, and so wicked. I thought it was freedom not to be ‘normal’ like everyone else, to have no morals, rules, or regulations. I had many like-mindedpeople around me which made it fun and proved to me that I was right. One thing eluded me. I had so much worry and fear in this lifestyle that made me always question and seek more.
Then I met Jesus. “Again you are mentioning Jesus! Are you one of those people who had a crazy past, been saved, and now it’s all about Jesus,” you are asking. Yes! And do you know why? His Law is Love and His Gospel (which means good news) is Peace. Would you be interested or at least curious about that? And He is not imposing His will on us, He gives us the freedom to choose Him or to reject Him.
How can I rebel against this law? All my life I wanted to belong,be loved and live in peace. I wanted a ‘good life’. I felt like an orphan, my unpredictable tomorrows leaving me with anxiety. Today I trust God with my past, present, and future; after all, He is in control. And I don’t have to be. This is my revelation; my Father is in control and He loves me unconditionally. Sometimes I don’t understand why things happening, but I believe it’s for my absolute best because I trust God. You may not be able to trust like that. I can because He loved me first before I even knew Him. He sacrificed His child for me. Would you give up your child to save the world? I certainly wouldn’t. But this is where God is different; He couldn’t help but be that good to us. He loves you and me so much that He was willing to suffer this painful loss and gave us a choice and opportunity (which we couldn’t earn and absolutely don’t deserve) for eternal life. I couldn’t refuse this free gift of salvation.
Although I still have struggles and pains and my future is still unpredictable, I have peace. If you are searching for peace it’s in the Bible in the chapter called Philippians 4:4-9. This is my first memorized and one of my favourite scriptures. “I belong to the family of Christ. I am not alone. I delight in His law because it blesses me and people around me as well.